Monday, August 2, 2010

Long-Belated Update

It's been a while since I've posted about myself. For a month or two it's because I was busy with work, and because I was slowly improving, and there's not a lot of news there. But the last few weeks, it's been because I've been sliding back downhill, and didn't have the energy to say anything.

Depression is not a simple thing. It's not like the flu or something, where you're miserable for a while, and then you start feeling better, and soon enough you're okay again. It's something I fight every day, just to get up in the morning, just to do my daily Etsy item renewal and Facebook posts. And the last few weeks that fight has been very hard.

I've kept going because I don't feel that I have a lot of choices otherwise. Even with the very low rent I'm paying here I'm still having trouble meeting expenses, and if I let up, I won't be able to do so at all. I'm taking time off, don't fear, and I'm trying to take care of myself, but it's hard when nothing I usually enjoy is any fun at all.

I haven't been able to do near as much online promoting as usual and July's online sales have reflected that. I'm glad I did as well as I did at the SCA events I sold at, because otherwise I wouldn't have made it through the month. There are several in August as well, so I should be okay, but in September they start getting sparse again, so I need to kick up my online presence, and to be honest I don't entirely remember how.

I know I used to spend six to eight hours a day online, working on the shop, promoting things, and I don't even remember what I spent all that time doing. I renew items every weekday and post them to Facebook, and sometimes I have the energy for a blog post, and that's about it. It doesn't take a lot of time and then I'm back to reading blogs and staring into space and trying to think what else I can do.

It's not all bad news -- I'm on a new medication, which should start helping within another week or so -- but right now it's hard to really believe it gets better. So have patience with me; I'm working on it.

Sorry for the babbling, and thanks for listening.

4 comments:

HilbertAstronaut said...

Still listening -- hang in there.

Rev. Sharon said...

Amen, sweetheart--I'm in much the same head space of late, and still here, somehow--there's got to be some grace in that, right? {{{hugs}}} I'll add my hang in there thought as well. Love you!!

Mrs. M said...

Hey, sweetie. I'm holding you in the light right now, praying for some healing and relief.

Kate said...

Y'all rock, thank you. Will update soon I hope.